Accepting pain as the key to wholeness

Accepting pain as the key to wholeness

A part of the substance of our Mother Creatress had to collapse, to be denied to create a dynamic, an experimentation system. That collapse generated holes in the whole! (W for Will and Woman went away!) It generated a lack of Self-acceptance affecting the entire universe. In this diminished sense of self, we establish and defend our individuality by pushing against and rejecting what is. We live in the “persona”, the shell we put on out of fear of the denied parts, the unknown.

We don’t recognize these parts since we lost and forgot them, and therefore can’t accept and re-own them. We are in a huge inward and outward pitfall with walls that keep us alienated from ourselves and others.

The way out of this predicament is to accept our Self, to uncover the parts of us that are buried under judgment, shame and hatred, and embrace them in our love, in our “acceptance”. What that means practically is to be willing to not resist what we truly feel anymore. Surrendering to the pain is the fastest, simplest tool to retrieve and accept ourselves, yet genetically, it’s the one we resist the most!

Questions:

  • Do you deep inside feel that something is missing no matter what you do? no matter what you get?
  • Did you do some healing but are still not getting to that place within that you so long for?
  • Do you want to reach true fulfillment beyond all conditional happiness?

Answers:

  • You are an old soul and your aspirations are profound
  • You found the place for all your deep questioning.
  • You are ready to live a life of ultimate fulfillment.

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About Natalie…

natalie - photoSpiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our essence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.

Enlightenment, Wholeness and Self-Realization

Enlightenment, Wholeness and Self-Realization

On the way to Self-Realization we can experience what we know as enlightenment. Enlightenment happens for some people when they are ready to integrate a part of their Essence— their Spirit, and have a profound experience with it. This integration can be incremental or total, depending on what one is ready to take in. It induces a state of bliss and peace. The realization of the Spirit is a step on the way to full Self-Realization but it is not mandatory. It depends upon one’s soul agreement. Some people will experience it, some won’t.

Enlightenment is a great state of Consciousness but it is not wholeness, since a portion of the Essence is still pending within, un-addressed and not activated. This part is the Will, the feminine and emotional energy. We certainly feel a lot but we don’t follow that guidance system to its core. We try to respect our feelings, embrace them and honor them and we certainly do a good job, but not good enough. We simply don’t know that we are stepping over a portion of what the feeling is pointing at, and we stay in control mode with techniques to re-center ourselves to a positive outlook.

In order to retrieve the Will, full transmutation is needed, which entails working with the emotional body, and dealing with pain. The resistance to our emotions is the last bastion that we have to surrender before we can truly realize our Self. The Will suffered from ages of repression and denial; it became frozen at the base of the iceberg, in the subconscious level, where we cannot even begin to feel it. We just have a deaf signal of “ill-at-easiness” that we override all the time, mostly with the control of our thinking, and our avoidance/denial strategies. In best cases, we think we honor our emotions by taking them in account, but we don’t know the depth of their significance. We are stuck in an “in between space” and live in a pseudo-identity, unknowingly attached to it. No mistake, we simply don’t know otherwise.

It is not necessary to first get enlightened to achieve Self-Realization. Once we work with the Will and retrieve it, it will naturally attract the Spirit; because of its magnetic nature, and because it gave birth to the Spirit in the first place. The Spirit wants to get back home to the Will. Once the Will is in place, there is no need for any control of the mind. No need for tweaking our thoughts to feel good. No need to hold to a philosophy or a practice to be aligned. One is at one with Self naturally, organically, and Self can express without interferences.

Natalie Kawai©2015

The meaning of surrender

The meaning of surrender

Surrender is a concept that we all have heard of, but we don’t know what it truly entails and how to actually do it. When we come into matter, we become not only solid but also resistant. We experience a sense of separation from our source that induces stigmata; wounds in our soul. These stigmata will later scar. The tissue is hardened, the blood coagulated, and the memory of the trauma is all tied up in that now resistant place.

Since our soul wants to return in the free flow of consciousness, our wounded places call upon us by drawing energy like a magnet and sending a signal of pain. But we don’t know how to deal with pain; we push it away and instead of doing the transmuting work, we become stuck in our wounds.

Since we are now identified with our resistance (trapped consciousness) instead of our selves (free consciousness) we are going to fiercely defend it. We unconsciously don’t want to capitulate our pain because we have become attached to it. We first don’t want to feel and later become unable to feel, or numbed. Since pain is a signal put in place by us to point out where we have a disconnection of energy, a gap in our consciousness, we are in a tricky predicament. We are stuck in pain, refuse to feel it, and as long as we “resist” our pain, we’ll remain trapped in it.

As soon as we surrender our resistance and feel the pain, in other words as soon as we surrender to the pain, we are back in the game; our consciousness is out of the trap and can flow freely. The real meaning of surrender is to put the resistance down like a crippling weapon that disables us to reconnect with ourselves.
The pieces of us that are coagulated will then be able to heal and flow again. When the resistance goes, the hardened scar of our tissue, our consciousness, can heal and flow again.

Our difficulty is that we have padded so much resistance and identified so strongly with it that we don’t feel it anymore. We live disconnected from ourselves in a pseudo-identity that speaks louder than our true self. All it takes to come out of this predicament is to start the process of recovery: feel the pain, stop pushing against it; embrace it because it is you talking to you, and surrender the resistance. Surrender can only happen when we yield to what we feel. Imagine that there is a barrier between you and your source and that barrier needs to be surrendered, put down. Every time you are up against that barrier, every time you feel bad, you need to embrace the feeling until you have absorbed the barrier or transmuted it. You then become one with it by loving it, accepting it instead of hating it. You regain yourself.