Surrender is a concept that we all have heard of, but we don’t know what it truly entails and how to actually do it. When we come into matter, we become not only solid but also resistant. We experience a sense of separation from our source that induces stigmata; wounds in our soul. These stigmata will later scar. The tissue is hardened, the blood coagulated, and the memory of the trauma is all tied up in that now resistant place.

Since our soul wants to return in the free flow of consciousness, our wounded places call upon us by drawing energy like a magnet and sending a signal of pain. But we don’t know how to deal with pain; we push it away and instead of doing the transmuting work, we become stuck in our wounds.

Since we are now identified with our resistance (trapped consciousness) instead of our selves (free consciousness) we are going to fiercely defend it. We unconsciously don’t want to capitulate our pain because we have become attached to it. We first don’t want to feel and later become unable to feel, or numbed. Since pain is a signal put in place by us to point out where we have a disconnection of energy, a gap in our consciousness, we are in a tricky predicament. We are stuck in pain, refuse to feel it, and as long as we “resist” our pain, we’ll remain trapped in it.

As soon as we surrender our resistance and feel the pain, in other words as soon as we surrender to the pain, we are back in the game; our consciousness is out of the trap and can flow freely. The real meaning of surrender is to put the resistance down like a crippling weapon that disables us to reconnect with ourselves.
The pieces of us that are coagulated will then be able to heal and flow again. When the resistance goes, the hardened scar of our tissue, our consciousness, can heal and flow again.

Our difficulty is that we have padded so much resistance and identified so strongly with it that we don’t feel it anymore. We live disconnected from ourselves in a pseudo-identity that speaks louder than our true self. All it takes to come out of this predicament is to start the process of recovery: feel the pain, stop pushing against it; embrace it because it is you talking to you, and surrender the resistance. Surrender can only happen when we yield to what we feel. Imagine that there is a barrier between you and your source and that barrier needs to be surrendered, put down. Every time you are up against that barrier, every time you feel bad, you need to embrace the feeling until you have absorbed the barrier or transmuted it. You then become one with it by loving it, accepting it instead of hating it. You regain yourself.