by Natalie Kawai | Aug 10, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
The other day, a good friend of mine said to me:
I am not coming from ego, I am self-confident!
That got me thinking.
To be self-reliant definitely feels powerful. We can think we come from a deep centered place but is it real? Let’s examine.
To be fully confident, we have to know ourselves, we have to be whole. To be whole we have to own all the consciousness there is. Since we lost a chunk of it upon incarnating, we start our journey lacking a portion of this precious substance. And the journeys of our life are precisely offered for us to conquer this lost substance, so that we can realize it consciously.
In the beginning we have replaced the lost consciousness by ego and patterns; it is our human challenge. Away from self, ego has invariably set in. Its role is to compensate the distance. The flaw of this system is that it keeps us separated from the wholeness of our Consciousness.
Ego will dupe you to believe that you are in self-confidence.
We have lived with ego for so long… it is so deeply intertwined in our subconscious layers that we are attached and hold on to it for dear life!
Ego is trained to make you feel good about yourself, because it has been its role forever. Wanting to keep its position, it makes you think you are powerful, centered and altogether in the mastery of your life. And to a degree it’s true. You can create what you want from ego, the only problem is that if you feel good, it will only be conditional and temporary; you will always have to find something better to make you feel good again, to top it all. It becomes the pursuit of more, because there is a missing part inwardly that cries to compensate with more outwardly.
Ego is here to make you think that your good has to improve. There is a missing part in you that calls you and makes you feel always incomplete; no matter what happens around, how much money you have, how much power you dispose of, how much love you receive. It’s never enough.
Being steered by ego is our predicament, because it has become entrenched in our fibers, in our DNA, and we don’t realize its presence anymore. A favorite ego strategy is to make us think we are whole and therefore confident, when in fact we are satisfying our ego demands in disguise.
Self-confidence can only exist in the totality of our presence, which means that if you are lacking a part of you, it will be replaced by ego. That’s a law in humanity. If we are self-confident from an ego position, then we are in an illusionary confidence. We carry forth ideas and creations that transmit that lack of wholeness, keeping us and others in the same mode, over and over.
The story line changes, but the plot is the same.
Life-styles improve but inside, the same wounds are still open.
Self-confidence coming from ego feels squeaky. The problem is that we learned to deny the squeakiness, attached to feeling safe instead of exploring further.
Questions: Are you ready and bold enough to examine where you are coming from?
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About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of 
Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Aug 1, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
What is our destiny as the people of Earth? Why are we here and what are we supposed to do? What is the purpose of life? Why do we die, and why do we have to go through torments, pains, frustrations, and desires that remain unfulfilled? Why do we all dream about a better world?
Whether we admit it or not, we all are haunted by these questions. We try to live our lives in the best possible way to enjoy and create what we want so we can be happy, or at least convince ourselves that we are. We actively create on Earth an emulation of Source that we “think” will bring us happiness and fulfillment. We mimic our Source to feel happy. We do that mostly by controlling our mindset. It is a first step and it is of course a good one, but restricted. We function on half our potential and we don’t even know it!
Thinking that achieving wellbeing in a material and emotional manner, flowing positive thoughts, cultivating a good attitude, changing old programs for better ones is going to fulfill our ultimate goal is still part of a temporary illusion. It only means “emulating” Source, but it doesn’t mean we have achieved our true purpose, which is being Source -—consciously experiencing what was ours to begin with; the piece of real estate that we used to own in Source. That only will give us a deep sense of fulfillment that nothing can compare with.
As human beings we have a hard time conceiving that we can BE Source, because we feel that this would be a form of blasphemy, we are attached to not being entitled. We are still traumatized by our entry into the world, our incarnation that was pretty hectic one must say! We are deeply embedded with a sense of having done something wrong and therefore hang on to our diminished sense of being.
Returning to full consciousness is the purpose of our life. It means to actively search for the parts of us that are still in limbo. Then we will be able to apply that consciousness to the vivid creation of our life. That only will fulfill us, since creativity is our primary identity.
Question –
Still confused about the purpose of your life?
Don’t hesitate to reach out for me! We’ll have a conversation and share our experiences! info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel
that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jul 19, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
How to feel better out of the crows of jealousy
Even when spiritually evolved, a lingering feeling of jealousy can harbor within the best hidden place in us. If we don’t understand why it is there and what to do about it, a lot of energy otherwise held up can be freed!
Repurpose the energy entrapped into jealousy.
When you feel jealous, it’s because your energy is into someone else or something else. The typical crime of passion describes it very clearly. Curtis loves Cecilia who betrays him with Neal. Curtis is all the way entrenched into Cecilia, to the point of total blindness of reason. Curtis kills Neal, because he needs to own Cecilia entirely. His emotions raised to fury when he learns that Cecilia went with Neal, because at this very moment, he feels that he lost a huge piece of himself and that makes him furious, to the point of suppressing a life.
That is extreme of course, but very descriptive.
When you envy someone for their looks, their success, their career, or whatever they have that looks like a benefit you deeply want, you are jealous. You become identified with something outside of you. That feeling can range from mild to extreme and it haunts you, whether you admit it or not. You can camouflage it, put some kind thoughts or words on it— “I am happy for you”, and pretend that you are not jealous, but… that is just a form of repression.
Repression is not doing any good to your system, even though you might feel you are in control.
Jealousy is the most natural feeling that we humans can feel when we don’t have the quality or advantage we want in life and look around at those who have it. Why? Because of our habit to project ourselves out, and to project what we want onto the world in a desperate attempt to get it.
Jealousy is a strong signal that you are away from yourself, yearning for that piece of you, you are trying to get by projecting it outside on the screen of life.
This pursuit never works and one will always end up feeling frustrated, sad, morose, enraged or disillusioned. Looking to find ourselves into others and into the three dimensional reality is a deep illusion that even those who know about it fall into, because it has many layers.
What to do about it. Number one rule. Don’t deny!
Follow the stream of your emotion. Feel it to the brim until it is all transformed, turned back into pure power. Then you will have triumphed from your projection, your alienation outside of you and return to your Self, and your own power.
Questions:
- When jealous, are you ashamed, angry, self-critical, sad, aggressive?
- Do you repress your jealousy not knowing what to do with it?
- Or launch it out creating deviated frictions?
If you knew how to deal with your jealousy and return to peace without suffering, you would have done it a long time ago! I can help with radical solutions. Don’t hesitate to connect with me at info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jul 12, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
When you are in pain, experience a depressed state or are less than happy, your emotional or physical system is giving you a signal.
This signal let’s you know that you are away from yourself.
How does that work? Why are we away from ourselves?
Because of the mechanism of projection.
Since we are in a state of inner fragmentation, we always project our energy out in an unconscious attempt to find ourselves. The mirror of our reality being the world, we project ourselves onto people, situations, as well as philosophies, concepts and ideas. Having moved from ourselves to an outer space, we are then forced to take care of “ourselves” by taking care of the situation or person we are projected onto. That is called co-dependency.
This mechanism is totally automatic, and we have applied it forever.
It creates a lot of problem. Being out of yourself, you don’t feel grounded or present, and on the contrary feel dependent, ill-at-ease, afraid and altogether shaky. You always need to have something or somebody in your environment to feel whole, secure and stable.
This mechanism also creates relationships between individuals based on co-dependency with the arsenal of joys and pains, love and hatred that follows inexorably. When the energy goes back and forth and the parties find what they want, all is good. When a party gets tired of this game and wants to come back to themselves, or project to another situation or person, then problems arise. No one wants to be dependent on anyone, or anything. We are freedom based beings! Resentment builds up that will explode in different scenarios: break up, rebellion, aggression, betrayal, manipulation, undercover blackmail and so forth; all the way to the other end of the spectrum— passive aggressive behavior, resistance and victimization. It will create a permanent and unspoken tension.
In all types of relationships we are projected onto, whether personal or professional, our energy is trapped in an implicit contract:
“I want something from you and you give it to me, thus I love you“ or,
“I want something from you that you don’t give me and I resent you for it” or,
“ You want something from me that I don’t want to give you and I resent you for that” or,
“ You get something from me and I resent you, but I get something from you too, so I’ll pretend we are fine, but … I still resent you.”
Or some combination of the above.
The underlying dynamic built up in this conflictual imprisonment we all are unconsciously trapped into is either subtly or blatantly disastrous. It creates dissensions, misunderstandings all the way to destructive and sabotaging behaviors that can trigger lots of disappointment, sense of betrayal and hurtle.
In certain extreme cases, the pain that some people experience being projected outside of themselves is so intense that they can lose the clarity of their mind and develop mental diseases, become border line psychotics or asocials. This intense inner crisis can also lead individuals to committing crimes, rob or kill in society to revenge themselves for that inner state of unfulfilled dependency.
Projection is the number one reason we experience pain, since going out of ourselves is precisely what causes us pain. The radical solution to being free from this disturbing state of reliance on outside mirrors is to become whole through the full recovery of all that we are.
Once in wholeness, you own all your pieces and don’t have to be dependent on anything or anyone to be at peace. Then relationships with everyone and everything will be based upon true love, sharing your talents and abilities.
Questions:
- You feel less than happy and you wonder why?
- You want radical solutions.
If you knew how to resolve your problem, you would have done it already, right? That’s why there are lots of people on Earth, we all solve each others issues, we all assist each other. You have a problem, I have solutions. Don’t hesitate to reach for me: Info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jul 1, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Let’s recap from last week –
“I think I made a mistake by incarnating, I feel guilty and on top of that I am afraid to be all that I am because I lost my right to be. I feel diminished—being is only for divinity, I am only human. Therefore I am also afraid to grow toward my Source, because I don’t deserve that place.”
We have incorporated these beliefs in our system so deeply and for so long that we don’t even know they are there. They have lodge themselves into the deep and thick layers of the collective unconsciousness. And they made their way into the cultures.
On top of that, we defend our deep sense of being diminished “I am only human” by opposing our Source with a ferocious momentum,
“You pushed me away, I push back”. We defend our humanity by resisting our divinity. It has become our identity.
One of our human trademarks is— I am only human, which is an excuse to resist our divinity and not stepping up to the full package of our power.
The gel is formed and the statue of the ego seeded in its roots.
We protect our humanity by fighting our divinity out of a deep and denied combination of unworthiness, sadness and rage. These feelings are deeply buried inside of our subconscious layers because we have not been able to address the deep trauma of having been, in our belief, abandoned by our creators.
We made a lot of progress in consciousness during the past few decades. We have asserted ourselves by discovering that thoughts have power and that we can “create our reality” by thinking positively and erasing negative emotions.
And that is good, it’s progress, but is it enough?
Controlling our thoughts is good, zapping negative emotions certainly relieves the angst we carry. But have we gone far enough to really recover the lost consciousness, the power that is behind our emotions, buried so deeply that we don’t even know it’s there?
That is the missing piece!
The New Era is about the recovery of that missing link so that we can become whole. We will therefore be able to proceed from full power, instead of lingering in the unconscious combination of repressed guilt and fear. Wholeness is “being” our Source entirely, whereas if we stay in repressed guilt and fear, we only “mimic” our Source.
Questions:
- Still feeling deep inside a void, a blind spot that you can’t really pin point?
- Hungry to have the whole nine yard of truth?
- Wanting to express all that you are?
Please let me know your questions. I would be honored and happy to answer! I am one e-mail away. Let’s talk on your no-obligation discovery session! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jun 21, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Why can’t we surrender the weapons and tricks of our ego that easily and why is it so hard to shift from the paradigm of our programming to the true nature that we are and all yearn for?
The number one reason is of course the fact that we are not conscious of being programmed, since we don’t remember that we replaced our lost consciousness by some foreign elements that made us feel whole again in a pseudo manner.
Number 2 is that we lived for so long in the tapestry of our woven programs that we became confused with it. We are therefore attached to them, and worse they became our pseudo identity. We will fight for this pseudo identity very hard, like for the blood in our veins! That goes to show the momentum and supremacy that this entity (our pseudo self) has gained over time.
Number 3 is the fact that even though we want our true self and are called by it, we are afraid of it, locked in a 2 steps forward, 2 steps backward kind of a dance. We wonder why we would rather sabotage our chance to be ourselves, rather than going all the way. We don’t understand why even though the right choice is right in front of us, we turn our back on it and fall back into the trap of avoidance, procrastination, addictions, victimization, or any kind of stories that pulls us away from embracing our true power and respecting ourselves 100%.
Why don’t we do what our heart deeply tells us to do? Because we are in the habit of sabotaging ourselves out of a tenacious claw that holds all of us very tight: the guilt to be and the fear to be.
Let’s examine those. Why on Earth would I feel guilty to be, one could ask? Well, this feeling is of course super unconscious and doesn’t apparently make any sense unless we dig a little further down into why we would feel that way. So let’s go back to its origin. We exit Source and immediately after everything collapses. Not only do we feel the tremendous pain of being out of Source, but we also are terrified because we don’t know where we are. To top it all, we think we made a tremendous mistake and totally blew it. In short, we feel guilty, for having come out and created the mess we are in. That guilt is reflected by Christianity with the concept of original sin. The real origin of the guilt is actually anterior. When the Father pushes the Mother away, he receives guilt as a signal that something went wrong. We just top this first guilt with ours.
Now there is another aspect to the guilt. We not only feel guilty because we think it’s all our fault, but we also feel that “being” is the inherent nature of divinity, the energy we come from and have lost. Since we wrongfully think we made a mistake by exiting and thus fell in disgrace, “banished from Eden”, we no longer feel worth that being-ness. Being becomes the “privilege” of divinity and thinking we have the right to be would be a blasphemy. All we are entitled to is to do our best to redeem ourselves until God bestows mercy upon us. This is not a scenario that we have consciously in mind of course, this runs into the deepest tracks of our subconscious, and one has to be willing to take a look, meaning dig in these layers, to truly unwind the predicament.
Needless to say that with this intricate set of thoughts, we have a hard time trusting ourselves.
Thinking we made a mistake and then lost our privilege to be doesn’t promote an easy way back to embracing our being-ness, our true nature. We unconsciously fight it, driven by these deep and subconscious beliefs that if we don’t exorcise and dismantle, will prevent us to return to our Source, embrace our true nature of being and thus become whole.
How do we address a belief that I am not even aware would be a legitimate question. ….to be followed.
Next week we’ll go further into that!
Questions?
- Have you done all you could do to solve a problem you have and it is not going away?
- Why can’t you create the life you really want?
Feel free to connect with me for your no-obligation discovery session! I’ll rock the boat of your unconscious beliefs! Throw me a note and I’ll be glad to answer! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
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