by Natalie Kawai | Jun 21, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Why can’t we surrender the weapons and tricks of our ego that easily and why is it so hard to shift from the paradigm of our programming to the true nature that we are and all yearn for?
The number one reason is of course the fact that we are not conscious of being programmed, since we don’t remember that we replaced our lost consciousness by some foreign elements that made us feel whole again in a pseudo manner.
Number 2 is that we lived for so long in the tapestry of our woven programs that we became confused with it. We are therefore attached to them, and worse they became our pseudo identity. We will fight for this pseudo identity very hard, like for the blood in our veins! That goes to show the momentum and supremacy that this entity (our pseudo self) has gained over time.
Number 3 is the fact that even though we want our true self and are called by it, we are afraid of it, locked in a 2 steps forward, 2 steps backward kind of a dance. We wonder why we would rather sabotage our chance to be ourselves, rather than going all the way. We don’t understand why even though the right choice is right in front of us, we turn our back on it and fall back into the trap of avoidance, procrastination, addictions, victimization, or any kind of stories that pulls us away from embracing our true power and respecting ourselves 100%.
Why don’t we do what our heart deeply tells us to do? Because we are in the habit of sabotaging ourselves out of a tenacious claw that holds all of us very tight: the guilt to be and the fear to be.
Let’s examine those. Why on Earth would I feel guilty to be, one could ask? Well, this feeling is of course super unconscious and doesn’t apparently make any sense unless we dig a little further down into why we would feel that way. So let’s go back to its origin. We exit Source and immediately after everything collapses. Not only do we feel the tremendous pain of being out of Source, but we also are terrified because we don’t know where we are. To top it all, we think we made a tremendous mistake and totally blew it. In short, we feel guilty, for having come out and created the mess we are in. That guilt is reflected by Christianity with the concept of original sin. The real origin of the guilt is actually anterior. When the Father pushes the Mother away, he receives guilt as a signal that something went wrong. We just top this first guilt with ours.
Now there is another aspect to the guilt. We not only feel guilty because we think it’s all our fault, but we also feel that “being” is the inherent nature of divinity, the energy we come from and have lost. Since we wrongfully think we made a mistake by exiting and thus fell in disgrace, “banished from Eden”, we no longer feel worth that being-ness. Being becomes the “privilege” of divinity and thinking we have the right to be would be a blasphemy. All we are entitled to is to do our best to redeem ourselves until God bestows mercy upon us. This is not a scenario that we have consciously in mind of course, this runs into the deepest tracks of our subconscious, and one has to be willing to take a look, meaning dig in these layers, to truly unwind the predicament.
Needless to say that with this intricate set of thoughts, we have a hard time trusting ourselves.
Thinking we made a mistake and then lost our privilege to be doesn’t promote an easy way back to embracing our being-ness, our true nature. We unconsciously fight it, driven by these deep and subconscious beliefs that if we don’t exorcise and dismantle, will prevent us to return to our Source, embrace our true nature of being and thus become whole.
How do we address a belief that I am not even aware would be a legitimate question. ….to be followed.
Next week we’ll go further into that!
Questions?
- Have you done all you could do to solve a problem you have and it is not going away?
- Why can’t you create the life you really want?
Feel free to connect with me for your no-obligation discovery session! I’ll rock the boat of your unconscious beliefs! Throw me a note and I’ll be glad to answer! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jun 14, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Being incarnated in a physical body is quite a challenge! On the one hand we love it, enjoy it, and on the other we hate it. Let me explain.
We have to identify with the body since upon incarnation it becomes our reality, but deep within we long for the essence we are coming from, our Source. We also think we made a mistake by becoming physical, which conveys a need to redeem ourselves. This need expresses in a deep seeded punishment from subtle to heavy.
We are in deep duality and constant conflict between matter and Spirit. We desperately want to be pure to be able to return to our Source, and therefore, very unconsciously push against the body and the emotional energy or Will. That’s one of the reasons we end up dying.
We think that returning to our prior home, Source, has to come with lining up with our Spirit, the only aspect of Source we know. That’s why we emulate that part of Source with positive thinking and attitude, repressing the negative emotions or zapping them out of our system.
The Spirit is not alone in the composition of the Essence of Life. The other aspect is “the Will” which lies down in the physical and emotional bodies, as a guidance system to precisely track down these last elements of wholeness, the parts we are not aware of. When we push against our emotions and avoid them, or when we unconsciously push against our physical body, what we deny is part of ourselves. We alienate ourselves from the element that would make us whole and back in alignment with our Source.
Upon death, the Spirit, very light and volatile, gets out of the body quickly and goes back to Source. Whereas the energy of the body stays back, feeling rejected and discarded repeatedly; it has never been accepted as divine energy, and is therefore, unable to rise. Since the energy of the Body cannot rise, the Will, which is stored in the bones, stays trapped as well. After decomposition or cremation of the body, the Will and the energy of the body stay hovering around the Earth plane as long as they have momentum, forming what is known as ghosts.
Since we have not reunited with the Body energy nor with the Will, we unknowingly continue to be in dichotomy pushing against them. Acceptance is the green light for the Body and the Will energies to be able to rise and get collected back into Source. The love of the Heart is needed to accomplish that total return to Source. The Heart is the blender between upper chakras— spiritual bodies, and lower chakras— physical body. That’s why Jesus— the Heart said, “You can only go to Source through me”. Which means we have to open our Heart and accept our Body and our Will. Then we will blend all the elements of our Self back into one and back into Source. Opening the Heart and accepting the Body and the Will takes work. It requires going through the pain of being away from our Source.
These aspects of creation are vital. As long as we stay away from parts of ourselves and keep controlling our lives with our minds and our belief systems, we will not know who we are entirely, and will stay isolated from our Source.
Questions?
- Do you feel ambivalent with your body, you don’t accept it fully?
- Do you wonder how to accept your body energy, in the way you have not fathom yet?
- Do you want to be whole all the way?
Feel free to connect with me for your discovery session, no obligation! I will answer your questions. info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jun 7, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Because we unknowingly lived forever in the lack of ourselves by missing the Will or Mother energy, we feel diminished; only a portion of our in-heritage is present. We have functioned on one leg instead of two, thus feeling invalid —a part of our value is off. This denied energy causes us to believe that we are not entitled to be, being-ness is only for divinity. That’s why we are stuck in mimicking our Source instead of reaching to be it. We think we are “only human” which disallows us to go the whole nine yards and re-enter our place in Source.
Before we can become one with our Source, we are in relationship with it. We relate with our Source as a reassurance-communication platform in order to know whether we are on the right track. When we belong with our place in Source, we have stepped into it, and therefore, we don’t need to relate with it to find out whether or not we are on track. We just know it.
The purpose of incarnation is to lose consciousness to create a strong motivation to regain it. That happens by experiencing Source and our disconnection from it. Once we regain our lost consciousness we regain our place in Source; we have returned home and are now fully conscious of who we are. And that is the very goal, since before the Big-Bang we were in Source without knowing who we are.
Instead of doing the work of recovering our lost consciousness, we have a tendency to stay stuck in emulation which is an unconscious projection of ourselves onto Source as a way to feel safe and on track.
Time to evolve and move forward— Let’s get over our unconscious complacency to remain diminished!
Questions:
- Unsure about the meaning of emulating vs. being Source?
- Questions about how to evolve and be all that you are?
I am here to answer. Feel free to connect with me and ask for your no-obligation discovery session: info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 31, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Understanding the premise of Creation reactivates the latent memory that we carry about our origin. It helps reawaken the consciousness we lost. Once we know what we are looking for we are more susceptible to find it.
In that context, let’s turn back the clock…
The burst of creation feels like an intense and traumatic chaos. From our cocoon of peace and quiet, we are propelled out in intense light and sound, much like birth from the human womb.
Our individuality is immediately defined by a sense of profound fear and resentment. Since we fragment and turn amnesic through the burst, we forget why we incarnate. We feel very victimized and in need to shield ourselves. We close down, solidify to protect ourselves, and by so doing create a rampart to consciousness. We block it up and start drifting away in a bubble of protest with our ego banner.
From this moment on, we try to constitute a sense of self outside the transparency of being-ness. We obstruct the flow and start to function out of reaction.
Being ejected, we feel re-jected and start to push against our Source. We feel diminished and limited and attach ourselves to that identity which becomes our “human definition”. We will then fight for that definition and create a consensus to protect our “human identity”. That’s how we give birth to the collective unconsciousness, alliance of humans to preserve what we think we are.
To re-unite with our self, we have to break down all the blocks of our “human definition”. But losing this pseudo identity is frightening because we feel we would lose ourselves and disappear.
Pushing against divinity in the fierce belief that we have to defend our diminished self is the last rampart that separates us from our Source. It takes dedicated warriors to go through it and recover full consciousness.
The recovery of full consciousness will eradicate the separation we still feel is lingering within. It will establish Heaven on Earth, which means the experience of our Source in our physical body and the material world. That experience is the reason why we come on Earth in the first place: To know our Source, who we are in a physical and tangible manner.
It might sound like science fiction, but so was flying in the 1900 and the invention of television ninety years ago!
Questions:
- You feel at peace just moments in the day and are eager to amplify this reality, it is your goal
- You feel that something is missing in the human equation and you can’t quite pinpoint what it is
- You are so eager to evolve, you want to know yourself, your soul power all the way
If so, feel free to connect with me, I am here to answer your questions! Let’s have a conversation. Sign up for a no-obligation discovery session, it’s easy : info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 24, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
In my research, I have been journeying backwards in sequences to the Initial Source, to come back to the very Womb, or point of creation, where we all started.
Let me invite you to that journey!
First, I became aware that the Universe’s primary energy is an emotional one. It is a tremendous desire that pulsates from its center out. This energy bears in its womb all the ingredients of creation: the Will, the Spirit, the Heart, and what will become the reflection of Source, the material of self-realization, the Body. The Will is the Mother; the Spirit is the Father. They contain us, the children, and will deliver us into creation. We are inside of them.
The Will, standing from the Whole or Beginning, is the densest material of creation. It is very magnetic and holds everything together. It is the feeling and nurturing part of the essence, and it keeps the creation grounded to its root. The Spirit is more volatile and electrical; it is the scout of creation, the part of the Essence that takes thoughts and initiates. The Heart is the blender; it brings together all the elements of creation so they can flow into Source. It carries the love of the universe, and it is destined to reunite all the aspects of its grandeur. The Body or Matter is the lowest vibrational ingredient of creation; its frequency is slow. It is designed to be the mirror, the reflector of all the other ingredients once it is in place, meaning manifested.
The initial Will, the womb of creation, is a matrix that holds all this material together within itself. One day, the desire brewing incessantly reaches its maximum contention and needs to get out and express. It takes a journey of self-expression in order to know itself or to self-realize. This universal energy encapsulates everything and is capable of forming all the rest. It is called the “Will,” the magnetic essence that created everything else down the line. It is the Great Mother of all Creation.
That initial core atom is made out of pixels—light pixels that have tremendous power and momentum. They are not activated into being the light we know about; they are dormant and not yet manifested. The Will and the Spirit dynamic is the precursor of the necessary dual mode. In order to have any activity or creativity, two are needed so one can reflect the other, in a reference system. All of that is in the matrix of the “Universe,” the initial “Will,” and so are we!
Questions?
If you have any questions about the content of this article, please connect, I would be happy to answer! And feel free to reach out for your discovery no-obligation session! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 9, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
We are divine energy and are creators by essence. There are two levels of manifestation: one is coming from the thoughts and emotions filtered with parasites, or programs, and the other is coming directly from Source or true Self. It is difficult to make the difference between our patterns and our Source since we are in a state of confusion between the two. We think we want something and because our sense of self is tied up with that idea, we apply our energy to create that thing or situation we want.
Since we are a creative energy flowing device, we can manifest through that pathway of the mind. Energy goes where we direct and focus it. This can nevertheless induce more confusion between the two plans of our reality: to be and to have, or here and there. We want something from a place of lack of Self, then we create that something there in the 3-D world and feel happy to a degree but it wears off.
If there is a definite satisfaction coming with that replacement, it is only temporary because we still long for the underlying real thing “true Self or being”, not yet fully recovered. We can get stuck in this distractive and more or less happy state, on our way to our Source. We can go for a long time with this process, going from one creation to another, always hoping that the next one will bring us “happiness”, will make us feeling more whole and fulfilled.
Once connected to our Source, upon doing the work of transmutation, we shift from replacing our parts and trying to feel whole with stuff in the world; being identified with “I manifest therefore I am”, to truly feel whole. Then creation flows easily, because nothing is in the way anymore. We create from Source, from the heart instead of from our thoughts embedded with ego. We create from an energy that is deeply rooted in being. No programs, no patterns to dictate us what to want. We are in the most magnetic place of the whole creation and attract naturally.
Manifesting from our heart will be the next step of our human experience in the up-coming era. This New Era is about implementing our masculine and controlling data with a more intuitive and nurturing quality: the emotional and feminine energy, shut down for eons. We will then find respect and balance with all lives.
Questions
- Your quest is sincere but you feel stuck?
- You want to feel your Source and experience some difficulty?
- You creations bring you happiness but you still don’t feel fulfilled?
Let’s talk! I can’t wait to meet with you in your discovery, no-obligation session, where we’ll look together in what you feel and desire. Feel free to connect: info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
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