by Natalie Kawai | Jul 12, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
When you are in pain, experience a depressed state or are less than happy, your emotional or physical system is giving you a signal.
This signal let’s you know that you are away from yourself.
How does that work? Why are we away from ourselves?
Because of the mechanism of projection.
Since we are in a state of inner fragmentation, we always project our energy out in an unconscious attempt to find ourselves. The mirror of our reality being the world, we project ourselves onto people, situations, as well as philosophies, concepts and ideas. Having moved from ourselves to an outer space, we are then forced to take care of “ourselves” by taking care of the situation or person we are projected onto. That is called co-dependency.
This mechanism is totally automatic, and we have applied it forever.
It creates a lot of problem. Being out of yourself, you don’t feel grounded or present, and on the contrary feel dependent, ill-at-ease, afraid and altogether shaky. You always need to have something or somebody in your environment to feel whole, secure and stable.
This mechanism also creates relationships between individuals based on co-dependency with the arsenal of joys and pains, love and hatred that follows inexorably. When the energy goes back and forth and the parties find what they want, all is good. When a party gets tired of this game and wants to come back to themselves, or project to another situation or person, then problems arise. No one wants to be dependent on anyone, or anything. We are freedom based beings! Resentment builds up that will explode in different scenarios: break up, rebellion, aggression, betrayal, manipulation, undercover blackmail and so forth; all the way to the other end of the spectrum— passive aggressive behavior, resistance and victimization. It will create a permanent and unspoken tension.
In all types of relationships we are projected onto, whether personal or professional, our energy is trapped in an implicit contract:
“I want something from you and you give it to me, thus I love you“ or,
“I want something from you that you don’t give me and I resent you for it” or,
“ You want something from me that I don’t want to give you and I resent you for that” or,
“ You get something from me and I resent you, but I get something from you too, so I’ll pretend we are fine, but … I still resent you.”
Or some combination of the above.
The underlying dynamic built up in this conflictual imprisonment we all are unconsciously trapped into is either subtly or blatantly disastrous. It creates dissensions, misunderstandings all the way to destructive and sabotaging behaviors that can trigger lots of disappointment, sense of betrayal and hurtle.
In certain extreme cases, the pain that some people experience being projected outside of themselves is so intense that they can lose the clarity of their mind and develop mental diseases, become border line psychotics or asocials. This intense inner crisis can also lead individuals to committing crimes, rob or kill in society to revenge themselves for that inner state of unfulfilled dependency.
Projection is the number one reason we experience pain, since going out of ourselves is precisely what causes us pain. The radical solution to being free from this disturbing state of reliance on outside mirrors is to become whole through the full recovery of all that we are.
Once in wholeness, you own all your pieces and don’t have to be dependent on anything or anyone to be at peace. Then relationships with everyone and everything will be based upon true love, sharing your talents and abilities.
Questions:
- You feel less than happy and you wonder why?
- You want radical solutions.
If you knew how to resolve your problem, you would have done it already, right? That’s why there are lots of people on Earth, we all solve each others issues, we all assist each other. You have a problem, I have solutions. Don’t hesitate to reach for me: Info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jul 1, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Let’s recap from last week –
“I think I made a mistake by incarnating, I feel guilty and on top of that I am afraid to be all that I am because I lost my right to be. I feel diminished—being is only for divinity, I am only human. Therefore I am also afraid to grow toward my Source, because I don’t deserve that place.”
We have incorporated these beliefs in our system so deeply and for so long that we don’t even know they are there. They have lodge themselves into the deep and thick layers of the collective unconsciousness. And they made their way into the cultures.
On top of that, we defend our deep sense of being diminished “I am only human” by opposing our Source with a ferocious momentum,
“You pushed me away, I push back”. We defend our humanity by resisting our divinity. It has become our identity.
One of our human trademarks is— I am only human, which is an excuse to resist our divinity and not stepping up to the full package of our power.
The gel is formed and the statue of the ego seeded in its roots.
We protect our humanity by fighting our divinity out of a deep and denied combination of unworthiness, sadness and rage. These feelings are deeply buried inside of our subconscious layers because we have not been able to address the deep trauma of having been, in our belief, abandoned by our creators.
We made a lot of progress in consciousness during the past few decades. We have asserted ourselves by discovering that thoughts have power and that we can “create our reality” by thinking positively and erasing negative emotions.
And that is good, it’s progress, but is it enough?
Controlling our thoughts is good, zapping negative emotions certainly relieves the angst we carry. But have we gone far enough to really recover the lost consciousness, the power that is behind our emotions, buried so deeply that we don’t even know it’s there?
That is the missing piece!
The New Era is about the recovery of that missing link so that we can become whole. We will therefore be able to proceed from full power, instead of lingering in the unconscious combination of repressed guilt and fear. Wholeness is “being” our Source entirely, whereas if we stay in repressed guilt and fear, we only “mimic” our Source.
Questions:
- Still feeling deep inside a void, a blind spot that you can’t really pin point?
- Hungry to have the whole nine yard of truth?
- Wanting to express all that you are?
Please let me know your questions. I would be honored and happy to answer! I am one e-mail away. Let’s talk on your no-obligation discovery session! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
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cher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | Jun 14, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Being incarnated in a physical body is quite a challenge! On the one hand we love it, enjoy it, and on the other we hate it. Let me explain.
We have to identify with the body since upon incarnation it becomes our reality, but deep within we long for the essence we are coming from, our Source. We also think we made a mistake by becoming physical, which conveys a need to redeem ourselves. This need expresses in a deep seeded punishment from subtle to heavy.
We are in deep duality and constant conflict between matter and Spirit. We desperately want to be pure to be able to return to our Source, and therefore, very unconsciously push against the body and the emotional energy or Will. That’s one of the reasons we end up dying.
We think that returning to our prior home, Source, has to come with lining up with our Spirit, the only aspect of Source we know. That’s why we emulate that part of Source with positive thinking and attitude, repressing the negative emotions or zapping them out of our system.
The Spirit is not alone in the composition of the Essence of Life. The other aspect is “the Will” which lies down in the physical and emotional bodies, as a guidance system to precisely track down these last elements of wholeness, the parts we are not aware of. When we push against our emotions and avoid them, or when we unconsciously push against our physical body, what we deny is part of ourselves. We alienate ourselves from the element that would make us whole and back in alignment with our Source.
Upon death, the Spirit, very light and volatile, gets out of the body quickly and goes back to Source. Whereas the energy of the body stays back, feeling rejected and discarded repeatedly; it has never been accepted as divine energy, and is therefore, unable to rise. Since the energy of the Body cannot rise, the Will, which is stored in the bones, stays trapped as well. After decomposition or cremation of the body, the Will and the energy of the body stay hovering around the Earth plane as long as they have momentum, forming what is known as ghosts.
Since we have not reunited with the Body energy nor with the Will, we unknowingly continue to be in dichotomy pushing against them. Acceptance is the green light for the Body and the Will energies to be able to rise and get collected back into Source. The love of the Heart is needed to accomplish that total return to Source. The Heart is the blender between upper chakras— spiritual bodies, and lower chakras— physical body. That’s why Jesus— the Heart said, “You can only go to Source through me”. Which means we have to open our Heart and accept our Body and our Will. Then we will blend all the elements of our Self back into one and back into Source. Opening the Heart and accepting the Body and the Will takes work. It requires going through the pain of being away from our Source.
These aspects of creation are vital. As long as we stay away from parts of ourselves and keep controlling our lives with our minds and our belief systems, we will not know who we are entirely, and will stay isolated from our Source.
Questions?
- Do you feel ambivalent with your body, you don’t accept it fully?
- Do you wonder how to accept your body energy, in the way you have not fathom yet?
- Do you want to be whole all the way?
Feel free to connect with me for your discovery session, no obligation! I will answer your questions. info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 31, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Understanding the premise of Creation reactivates the latent memory that we carry about our origin. It helps reawaken the consciousness we lost. Once we know what we are looking for we are more susceptible to find it.
In that context, let’s turn back the clock…
The burst of creation feels like an intense and traumatic chaos. From our cocoon of peace and quiet, we are propelled out in intense light and sound, much like birth from the human womb.
Our individuality is immediately defined by a sense of profound fear and resentment. Since we fragment and turn amnesic through the burst, we forget why we incarnate. We feel very victimized and in need to shield ourselves. We close down, solidify to protect ourselves, and by so doing create a rampart to consciousness. We block it up and start drifting away in a bubble of protest with our ego banner.
From this moment on, we try to constitute a sense of self outside the transparency of being-ness. We obstruct the flow and start to function out of reaction.
Being ejected, we feel re-jected and start to push against our Source. We feel diminished and limited and attach ourselves to that identity which becomes our “human definition”. We will then fight for that definition and create a consensus to protect our “human identity”. That’s how we give birth to the collective unconsciousness, alliance of humans to preserve what we think we are.
To re-unite with our self, we have to break down all the blocks of our “human definition”. But losing this pseudo identity is frightening because we feel we would lose ourselves and disappear.
Pushing against divinity in the fierce belief that we have to defend our diminished self is the last rampart that separates us from our Source. It takes dedicated warriors to go through it and recover full consciousness.
The recovery of full consciousness will eradicate the separation we still feel is lingering within. It will establish Heaven on Earth, which means the experience of our Source in our physical body and the material world. That experience is the reason why we come on Earth in the first place: To know our Source, who we are in a physical and tangible manner.
It might sound like science fiction, but so was flying in the 1900 and the invention of television ninety years ago!
Questions:
- You feel at peace just moments in the day and are eager to amplify this reality, it is your goal
- You feel that something is missing in the human equation and you can’t quite pinpoint what it is
- You are so eager to evolve, you want to know yourself, your soul power all the way
If so, feel free to connect with me, I am here to answer your questions! Let’s have a conversation. Sign up for a no-obligation discovery session, it’s easy : info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 24, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
In my research, I have been journeying backwards in sequences to the Initial Source, to come back to the very Womb, or point of creation, where we all started.
Let me invite you to that journey!
First, I became aware that the Universe’s primary energy is an emotional one. It is a tremendous desire that pulsates from its center out. This energy bears in its womb all the ingredients of creation: the Will, the Spirit, the Heart, and what will become the reflection of Source, the material of self-realization, the Body. The Will is the Mother; the Spirit is the Father. They contain us, the children, and will deliver us into creation. We are inside of them.
The Will, standing from the Whole or Beginning, is the densest material of creation. It is very magnetic and holds everything together. It is the feeling and nurturing part of the essence, and it keeps the creation grounded to its root. The Spirit is more volatile and electrical; it is the scout of creation, the part of the Essence that takes thoughts and initiates. The Heart is the blender; it brings together all the elements of creation so they can flow into Source. It carries the love of the universe, and it is destined to reunite all the aspects of its grandeur. The Body or Matter is the lowest vibrational ingredient of creation; its frequency is slow. It is designed to be the mirror, the reflector of all the other ingredients once it is in place, meaning manifested.
The initial Will, the womb of creation, is a matrix that holds all this material together within itself. One day, the desire brewing incessantly reaches its maximum contention and needs to get out and express. It takes a journey of self-expression in order to know itself or to self-realize. This universal energy encapsulates everything and is capable of forming all the rest. It is called the “Will,” the magnetic essence that created everything else down the line. It is the Great Mother of all Creation.
That initial core atom is made out of pixels—light pixels that have tremendous power and momentum. They are not activated into being the light we know about; they are dormant and not yet manifested. The Will and the Spirit dynamic is the precursor of the necessary dual mode. In order to have any activity or creativity, two are needed so one can reflect the other, in a reference system. All of that is in the matrix of the “Universe,” the initial “Will,” and so are we!
Questions?
If you have any questions about the content of this article, please connect, I would be happy to answer! And feel free to reach out for your discovery no-obligation session! info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
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